sweet 19 to baby lim ;)

celebrated my baby lim birthday yesterday
actually there is a plan
but it is failed..
all because of my stupid period ;(
the birthday boy should be the 'king'
but i still steal the spotlight
haihh.. bai fon kan
i argue with him yesterday
actually i really dont want to argue with him
but i can do nothing because i cant control my temper
sorry baby ;( huhu i spoiled ur big day
luckily he is okay
but still hurt when he drop his tears
the most saddest birthday i ever gave him
thanks to u stupid young lady..
but he having blast on his birthday night
when all of the guy throw him into pool
imagine how cold the water..
all of them come kick
because they plan to go swim on 12midnight @@
we having this cupcake with cigaratte as candle
hahaha really fun..
i just watched because i cant go into the water..
otherwise the water gonna change to reddish
he was so happy laa that nite
and then we go for a simple dinner with YungYung
direct go to airport
send yung's friend to Kuching ;) bye vincent!
sorrryy no clubbing or cake
because the hubby say 'NO'
he's kinda weird, i never saw someone birthday
without a cake and blow candle..
even birthday song ;(
he just want a simple dinner with me and his cousin
nevermind laa.. birthday celebrated every year ma
still have another year..

but i still want to list down the 19facts that made me so inlove with you ;)

1. You are totally 'HANDSOME' for me ;)
2. I love bad guy..
3. You are LESS EDUCATED but not STUPID!
4. Respect all of my family
5. You are my enemy but best friend too
6. You made me like 'S.U.P.R.I.S.E' for you
7. I always the NO.1 (u said so)..
8. You sayang me like Daughter,Sister,GF & Wifey ;)
9. You never give me Money but Present..
10. My hotel whenever im homeless
11. You always sing a song for me..
12. you are passionate >< i loved most!
13. FIERCE but SOFT-HEARTED(only me laa)
14. Never say 'NO' when i say 'TIDAK BOLEH'
15. I am the winner, you are the loser ;P
16. You yell & shout at me but cried like HELL
17. You cant watch me sick/in pain..
18. SMILE is your greatest gift to me ;)
19. ALICE THEODORA SONG is your heart..

HAPPY SWEET 19 MY DEAR LIM ;)
wish u luck with ur career
& happy always ;D
love u darling!

feel of facing exam ;(

first of all..
i wish i have the power
dividing myself into 2 different people
so that is easier for me
to have a balanced and healthy thinking..
i have this bad attitude
and i thought i've changed
actually it still inside me..
my weakness is i cant think positively/twice
i judge people by her/his first mistakes
yeah.. that is me ;( i hate myself too!
i always out of mind..
thinking too much..
& imagine bad things occur to me :(
nonsence right? i agree too!
i wish i could be matured like my friends
i envy the way they solve their probs
deal with people in matured ways..
haihhh.. alice, one more month
then u going to be 18!
dont so childish anymore laa ;(

and i really sorry to mom and bro
i was like so 'BODOH'
when i turn around & ignored them
i should look at them & say BYE
but i was too ego to look back
i really feel bad for that!
i dont even dare to make a call
actually i want to call mom
but i lack of braveness
i cant do it..
because i dont want to hear mom crying ;(
*sorry mi >< very sorry!
but u should know that im very saving now
i didnt use my money for fun
i really wasted it in my daily use ;(
i hope u understand..

another thing..
i wish i could see YOU today
but still i need to wait ;(
i know its alot of work that u have to do
i wish u going to be okay at there
its been 1week 3days i didnt saw u
wish u will be here tomorrow
i miss u so much baby
really need u ;(

having 10Tan of tension
really stress out with the final exam stuff
i wish i have a genius mind!
so i can go through the examination..
lastnight mom beg me to get a good result
but in my heart actually was 'mi,atleast pass laa'
i know im not a genius
so i can stop dreaming to have straight A's/number of A
it wont be happen!
and yeah i quite lazy
but this few days i do have revision
& check out past year questions
so wish it is easy like i saw..
or else i really dont have idea how to go for the exam..
i dont want too much pressure
so dont put too much hope on me!
i only can give my best
im not genius! i cannot give extraordinary result
pa,mi & baby..
pls just support, dont push me so hard!
i promise the result going to be okay..

p/s : i miss home, family and baby! i want to go back ;(

3 Big Things ;(

day by day..
i cant stop myself from watching the clock
i count every second every minute
until it turns to be hours
i sleep late recently
im having insomnia now ;(
because i was so worried about
the next '3BIG THINGS'
that i am going to face soon..

major & most important thing..
♥SAYANG SWEET 19♥
i haven buy anything for him yet
as he already have everythings..
he have branded thingy
so that is too common for him
i wish to give him some special stuff
but i dont know what should it be
i know he dont hope anything from me
& dont want me spend too much
for his coming birthday
cause he want to make it simple
but as i am too over the top
i wish to have a big party..
delicious cake & dinner
fabulous birthday present
and of course a super amazing club!
(if only kk have that kind of club)
everybody give a big CLAP & HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
huhh.. i wish he is going to be happy
but i know im out of budget
so dont even think about it ;(
i should make it simple
cause he ask for it..
im gonna make him angry if i act CLEVER!
ok alice! stop urself..

2nd thingy..
I WANT TO GO HOME
i am homesick!
i miss home
i miss papa & mama
i miss my stupid brother
i miss my kids.. Gucci & Chanel Lim
i miss my room
i miss my bed
i miss my car
i miss my astro & flat tv
i miss my comp
i miss my sofa
i miss my mom homedish
i miss my granma
i miss my cousins
i miss my aunt & uncle
i miss my kakak
i miss kampong!
i miss everything in keningau ;(
i wish i am there now
but still stuck with my final exam..

3rd thing..
I HATE EXAM BUT I HAVE TO GO..
i got the schedule & that pissed me off
im having my final exam on 30th Nov
a night after my hubby birthday!
what the birthday would be?
if i brings book along..
he must going to call me sleep early
do revision & bla bla bla..
as he is over concern of my exam
i dont want to be 'ULAT BUKU' on his bigday
so now im still fnding way
to be a good GF
& prepare for my coming exam..GOD BLESS ME ;)

gaming mode now
but line sucks!
p/s : coutdown 7days!

I am so BITCHY!

dont get shocked with the bicthy words k
haha because honestly i always do..
but it only comes when there are only
SAYANG & ME (evil laugh)
although lastnight we having a lil war
but it tends to become so great
what's funny was because
he beg me to be there with him tonight
'B.. 回来eh, my birdy wake up' haha
it cames to my mind suddenly
imagine a super sexy bedtime with him!

okay! im not going to be silent
i can play this kind of game with him
how i just ask him to close his eyes
and then telling that
i was slowly take off my clothes
like in movies laa.. when girl start to get high.. haha
and then it is time to open the zip
slowly.. make the boys wondering
what type of underwear she's wearing
she do shave bold or layer.. ahaha
..tuuutttttttt tutttttttttt..
so can u imagine my look?
only with a bra on top
and wearing damn hot underwear..
hahaha, nose bleeding juga ba ;)
even im not sexy as MEGAN FOX!
*not real laa, just GODAGODA him*
fun what? boy are so passionate
girl should 'tap line' haha
he was just LOL>>'B kau memang jahat ba, gete'!!
pity him, only could listen to my LIN HUA
but then our conversation are so great
errr i dont prefer a boring talk laa
so not us..
we rather talk FEI HUA because
ITS BETTER TO BUILD RELATIONSHIP!
kuang kuang.. palui ba me
just for fun laa
better i goda him first
before other chick got chance to goda him kan?
boys ba... girls i tell you
dont too confident with ur pretty face
sometimes it is so unuseful
because they dont need a pretty girl
they need somebody
that can share everything with them
not sex only laa ba..
must got few of u misunderstood leh ;)
i mean hobby..
stories..
life..
& so on..... think by urself yang lain
i cannot list down all
my brain still lagging
chehhhh still thinking about my bedtime!haha
aiyoo ssorrrryyy if too open minded
im sharing my life with him
plus, this is my blog
i got the right to write anything i want to..
if u are under 18, tutup mata!
jgn baca kakak punya story ;)
nanti mumy kamu cari sia ;P
if u are open minded
just read laa, im ok with it!
i dont have to be shy
because i love to show off ><
bout my happiness, sadness, fun & joy
even if i have any prob
i feel better when i write it out
rather than telling it to others..
sorry again k!

p/s : dont try this at home, only for 18above ;)

suffer with backbone!

errrr im suffer again
this time not about emo feel
its with my back bone!
i dont know what kind of sick or disease
i always feel pain
especially in the morning
when i was just woke up from my sleep
even after do massage
still feel pain again the next day
almost a month..
still havent found any way to recover
i hope there is no injured inside my body
it really make me tired
always feel dizzy
i sleep well everynite
but then next day will so suffer?
anyone can help me to find the solution?
what actually cause this?
and then i cough so bad..
its because i didnt take medicine
i do it on purpose cause i kinda phobia with it
er.... family bf and friend shud know bout it
so no need to explain much ;)
just hope i will recover soon
BACKBONE pls dont give me trouble gain
when will u leave me?
seriously i dont need u! huhu..
so pls back off from my body!

today i do my own holiday!haha
because im lazy and not comfortable
all because of SICK word
try to be good girl
but still bad girl win the battle
since i was just go to bed at 4.30am
i dont have any energy to wake up
plus tomorrow dont have class
so better make it fast! haha
shhhhtttt.. silent k
if my mom know bout this
im gonna die soon
2weeks away to my sayang birthday
what present for this year ah?
i know he going to celeb it at kk
so SECRET RECIPE cake must be in the list ;)
hope u like it k sayang!
bout ur present
i told u im going to buy boxer and condom
this no jokes! haha u'll get it on time!
boleh ba kan?? hehe
feel excited to celeb it with him
so good to have a phone talk with u
i hope u going to be fine
dont too 'keras kepala'
however i still support u
dont worry everything will be fine soon!
muah..xoxo love u always!

OH.. ALMOST FORGET!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SILLA!
my lovely housemate ;)
sorrrrrryyy laa kami siram pakai telur ah
actually ada special recipe tu kami campur
tu la ada bau semacam! haha
happy birthday girl ;)
hope u happy always
and stay cute k! muahhhhh
sayang banget!





p/s: im feel better now!

Alice dying!

my emo feel come to say 'HI' again
im writing same story everyday
because im so down..
i need someone seriously
i have to talk..
but im not sure
i able to answer the question
i could give a perfect feedback ;(
actually i almost forget
but i saw a post just now
it said : friend and bf? which one important?
of course most answer will be>>Friend
so do i..

but then im thinking
BF? why not..
something wrong with them?
actually bf is the one
who said 'I LOVE YOU' to u everyday
did ur friend say so to u? NO!
yess friend love us
i love my friend too
but how could we compare
the love between friend and bf..
friend love us as siblings
but bf love us as their soulmate
which one u want more?
u need to choose by urself
for me LOVE..
i already have the answer
i admit i am so selfish
atleast i have the braveness
to choose one of them..
my friends are important
i care them.. i love them
i know they love me too!

'Friends can be forever,but Love cant'
what the heck is that?
gosh stupid laa who said this!
use ur mind ba..
why love cant be forever? prove it to me
it depends on the way u handle ur relationship
not because of faith.. ok!
if friends forever
then must be love forever
dont shortcut mind ba..
love forever not just for bf laa
it incuded to ur family, friend or even ur pets!
so dont say love cant be forever..
remember this k!

fuhhhh..like 'dokter cinta' udah
buduh me! u can ignored this actually
dont be like me ;D haha
i just give opinion
dont take it too serious k ;)
chill ba.. life must go on
we must happy everyday! wohoo!

gaming mode now
continue later if i have new inspiration
haha ;D goonight all..xoxo

p/s: LIM dont worry! aku sanget baik di sini ;) u too k! take care my love ;) muahh!

happy for a moment

why happy for a moment?
because after tonight
im going to be lonely again..
i need somebody with me now
but i lost both
MY LOVE?
he is 'sick'
i dont dare to bother him
i'll scare i'll make him angry again
i really happy when he show a smile
before leaving my house
last thursday..
but deep in his heart
i know there is still
abit of anger towards me
i dont sure if he still need me in his life now..
blame myself.. im too 'kepala batu'
thats why he angry
actually i dont care anything anymore
as long he still know
how to come back to me
then im satisfied..
Yess, i am stupid..
but i cant deny that i still need him
i always said there is no chance
but chance come again and again
because our relation its not easy
only u know what i mean sayang!
thats our secret..
if we could keep it
but unfortunately ...........
im regrets for the stupid action
i hate them who made u angry
i dont care about them anymore
i just want to care ur feels
pls forgive me!

haihhh emo emo..
thanks to mom ;)
stick with mom today
shopping all day long
pity mom cause bought alot for me
err.. but she alot more than me!
haha ;D
although its not longlasting
but atleast she give me love today
thanks again mommy!

p/s: sayang!mommy looking for u ;)

sorry im useless!

for the first time
im so useless...
speechless...
pointless...
disappointed...
anger toward myself...

why?

at the time u in trouble
frustrated...
hopeless...
sad...
lonely...
u need me so much!
but i cant even help u
u want my companion
but i seems dun care
u want to talk to me
but i talk about something else
i blame u for being moody
but i forgot..
how much pain inside u
i angry when u ignored me
but i forgot..
actually u're thinking somebody
ways to solve the prob
how to back to normal...

i am the only person
that u can refer to..
talking to..
cheer u..
chill u..
company u..
i am ur only hope!
atlast i am the only one
who didnt understand u
gave u a care..

i am sorry!
really sorry..
i hope there still
have a lil space for me
to be there for u..
like u always said..
i'll be there for u..
its my turn to be there for u
do something for u..

family story

yesterday im doing assignment
topic was about my biodata
feel to blogging now
so i have this idea to write bout me
errr.. lets start with family matter

ok!my family..
Alice Theodora Song Ai Lee
that is my given name
was born on 10dec1992
a female baby ya ;)
do u know that im sino?
ok let me make this clear
i know laa my look not so "chinese"
but the fact is
my PAPA is CHINESE
my MAMA is DUSUN
they were such a great parents
although sometimes they're demanding..
very proud to have them as my parents
daddy quite steady
he not too control
always giving what i wish..*money*
but once he explode
nahhhhhh.. Boom Boom Pow!
mommy is my superwomen ;)
she very helpful in my clothing
haha like mom like daugh
what a girl need>> shopping!
she's my assistance this
if involving fashion or make up
always have a good comment
what i remember most
=>baby,jangan pakai terlampau sexy ba..haha
my mom phrases nihh..
and then i have this two lil bro
not so lil laa...
cause both now taller & bigger than me
they almost my big bro & im the lil sis@@

about my bro..
Allan is the good one
he treat me kind
respective..
he do what i told him to do
i am the mistress at home
hahahahaha ;D
Alric?? no no
he is the rebel one
what he know is laugh at me
making fun..
let me angry..
to see him being good with me?
ohya..when he need to get something from me
but they still among the best bro
if they saw im in trouble
i am lucky cause i have this great fam
only them can cheers me..

start to jealous ah..?
still alot i want to write nihh
now about my in-law side..hehe
should start who first?

i say.. Sayang!
he is my everything
want to know why?
for heart..
he is my soulmate
loved man...
boyfriend...
bestfriend...
enemy...
companion...
listener...
second daddy...
second mommy...
my big brother...

For physical
he is my bank for sure..haha
thanks for the bank card laa k baby ;)
my bodyguard..
my tukang urut..
my tukang masak..
my exercise couch*for bedtime
orang gaji..
doctor.. when im lovesick
counselor..
bla bla bla.....banyak laa
dont know how to list down
honestly YOU are the best
amazing one..
paling dai siak laa ;D


for my dearest Mr&Mrs Lim
they are the most sporting
helpful.. supportive..
kind.. generous..
loving person..
my second parents..
Mr.Lim..
thanks for the sponsorship
when i need shopping
thanks for the money u gave me
the time i help u jaga rumah(gaji)
thanks for the trip
u invite me go along..
thanks for always spending me
breakfast lunch dinner..
thanks for helping me always
Mrs.Lim..
thanks for the puppies..
thanks for the present u bought
for me everytime u overseas
thanks for the cheese cake
u bake for me on my 17th birthday
thats sweet and im so grateful..
thanks for being my 2nd mom
u persuade me everytime
when u saw im in pain..
thanks for everythings..

should list down my "sis"
mr. Robin Chong..hehe
thanks for ur help yung
my funny clown
ur jokes really work
when im moody..
thanks for helping me
when im alone and lost help at kk
u always the num 1
when my hubby not around
happy to have u this big bro..

of course to the lovely ama..
thanks for ur siak
always get a kiss when i saw u
u treat me very kind
like ur own grandchild
muahhh siak ama ;)

to my bro&sis in law
we are not so close
but sometimes also 38-ing
especially nicole..
u cool ;)
sometimes scared to talk with u
but u open minded thou..

see.. alot people siak
im just like a lil bab
that need alot of protection
im lucky...
because they willing to care
THANKS FAMILY
heart you all ;)

miss but patient

Fuhh i made a full stop finally..
i felt tired

BUT

today mom chatting with me
she keep pushing me to study hard
i've told her about the assignment
i've told her about my revision
i've told her about my time table
she still pushing..

MOM
seriuosly im exhausted
i really want to go home
i miss all of you
i miss home
i miss my bed..
i miss Gucci and MeiMei

next week..
im going to go home
its been a long time i away from home
or else i hope all of u to come here
visits me when you all free
i really lonely

But thanks to Sayang
u came everyweek to company me
i feel grateful
u know im going to be lonely
so u come down to see me
talk with me
bring me gaigai
shopping..
movies..
gaming..
now im waiting for u again
its thursday!
u promised u coming on friday morning
hope they let u come earlier ;)
miss u so bad

now i back to my game
sleepy but lazy want to go bed
goodnight..
sweet dreams

attention on study

STRESSFUL..STUDY..
only this two words in my mind now
this week i am going to struggle
cause i need to pass up assignment
but also taking the mid-term at the same time
GOSH!
i dont have any preparation
i do my revision every night
but still cant memories all
all the stress started to come
IM SCARED
watching my mom stand behind
showing a face full of disappointment
her hope towards me are higher than mountain
bigger than ocean..
how am i going to make her proud of me?
it is not easy to be the only daughter for them
I NEED TO SHOW MY GOOD RESULT
so that my mom wont cuci my telinga every time
I NEED TO ALWAYS STAY AT HOME
so that my mom trust that i have study
I NEED TO SAVING
so that my mom will give me more money

DAD always played a role as my saviour..
he gave me money when im totally broke
he trust that im going to have a good result
its like mom>>DEVIL and dad>>GOD
but mom loved me so much.. i know that!

oppss away from topic@@
come back come back..
my topic was about the tension that im facing towards my assignment and exam
i really cant stand on it
all was done last minute
i dont have enough space to breathe anymore
i just hope i can pass
and so on to my next sems...

my fragrance ;)

Yeaaaahhhhh...
now i have a bunch collection of fragrance
actually im not so fanatic with perfume
but me myself also dont know since when
and how i am suddenly fall inlove with it..
just feel like i need it anytime to make me feel fresh
i really loved the smell of this vanilla perfume
it makes me want to lick myself
like candy this..
brought my sayang to The Body Shop
he kinda love the smell
and finally this was mine!
Thankss for the sponsorship baby..
so so so grateful that you bought it for me
i thougth you will get mad
but u smiling and say "as long u happy laa"
not so expensive juga ma kan ;D
jahat nie, tukang habis duit laki..hehe
going to find another type of fragrance soon!

i am going to get both of this in this week ;) ahh new fragrance!