圣诞节快乐 ；）

这么快的又过了一天
再过五天就进入了新的一年
我还蛮害怕的 不想面对2011年
因为自己又要老一岁了
哈哈哈
大家都急着跟我说
“再过两年就可以嫁人了”
心里想没这么快啦
我连书都还没读完
怎样做人家的老婆啊
真是笑死人！
每天我就是过这样的日子
没什么特别的
尤其在这圣诞节日
我还以为我会过得开开心心
没想到还是一样 不特别
加上我男友还要在26号那一天做工
真的气死我啊
搞到我们两个乱七八糟
还吵了起来
差点点就要踏进了“冷战”区
还好现在两个人都没事了
大家已经好好的谈 好好的道歉
接下来的日子
我也不知道要怎样过了
毕竟我的家乡只是一个小小的地区
就算有什么日子
也不会开到很夸张
这里外地人就多的是
店子又很少
就算要出去跑街也未必会拿到什么收获
乖乖呆在家是最好了
不过这几天都很冷 还下了大雨
感觉像在外国的冷天下雪
也算可以感受到圣诞的气氛
有一点开心 可可可
可惜的就是没有机会跟我的亲戚朋友一起过这个节日
希望明年可以一起集合
大家过开心的圣诞
好了
我也没什么想写了
就到这里吧
最后就祝福大家






圣诞节快乐 ；D

mom, daughter dinner ;D

last night i went dinner with mom
join together with Ling aunty & her daughter
also Ting aunty with her whole family ;)
too bad the place is Honey Sweet
actually drinks was okay but food quiet speechless
really pissed me off >< hard to find a delicious food at here
but still eat bao bao laa
no choice, food already odered!
having a great talk with them because they so open-minded
really unexpected eh, especially mom..
however i still feel happy and thankful
i've spent alot of time with my mommy ;)

nothing much special during holiday
now im just facebook-ing
and the activities repeated for every single days
SO LAME

above pic is my very new look!
took last nightafter back from dinner ;)
goodnight ;) xoxo!

fresh air ;)

i feel good blogging early in the morning
i woke up early because i need to go for my driving test
but when i rushing get prepared
suddenly mom told me the test was cancelled!
they change it to tomorrow morning ;(
after i heard it i was like ARRRGGHHH!
why dont tell me earlier
i was so in the mood to sleep lo ><
this few days i always late sleep
only last night i manage to sleep early
i really want to take the chance to sleep until enough
but all spoiled by my alarm ;(
try to get into sleep back but once i awake
there is no way i cant sleep in
so i just wake up, plus that my hubby also wake up already
he is preparing himself to go work
i really feel 'BU SHE DE' to let him go
since he was just here yesterday evening
so fast need to go back there again
its okay laa... few more days he gonna have a long holiday
just need more patient to wait!

but thats not my real point
my point is i really feel good to have a very fresh air today
last time when i used to be in secondary school
i always woke up early and i really hated it
but now i really miss the moment
alarm every morning.. rushing prepared to go school ;)
i wish i could go back to high school!
countdown 5days


HAPPY HOLIDAY ;) MERRY CHRISTMAS

i want more!

recently im on my slimming schedule
im not a diet type and also not a sport type
so i still eat alot while doing some small exercises
every evening i went to my grandmom house
im having my exercise team
which is stand from my cousin's
we all play badminton everyday ;)
i think that is the most easy exercise for me..
i became harworking day by day
my common weight always 39-40kg
but i get shocked when i saw my weight just now!
in a week im losing 0.5kg
it means that my weight now is 38.5kg
alot people told me that my weight count as not normal dy
but i think it suit me alot
as im not a 'SUPERMODEL' type
i wish i have the leg, but...
i just cant imagine how ugly im gonna look like
if im over weight.. so i really need to keep my body fit
must always be the slimmest i can ;)
also i wish to have a sexy and hot hotty body..
so im gonna hardwork until i satisfy!

this is my face with 38.5kg
i dont think there is a big different
i still look same ;(

i miss you badly ;X

baby.. where are you?
why dont you come back?
is it there really many work to do?
you told me you will always come back
but everytime you failed to do like you had promise
i dont dare to say 'NO'
because i know how much you are struggling with this work

but you start to forget one thing >> ME

in a week, i just have 3days..
to see you..
to talk with you..
to see your smile..
to heard your jokes..
to hold your hand..
to kiss your lips..
to hug you..
until i fall asleep at your shoulder ;(
i miss all of that
but now its hard for me to get it anymore
plus that your work place are too far
even if you have handphone or laptop
its unuseful because there are no any signal
really hard to find you sometime

sometime i asking myself
why do i need to push myself so hard to be with you?
is this relationship really exist some LOVE?
are we really inlove?
i dont know.. i cant give an answer
i do know & realize that im really important for you
and i know you cant go anywhere without me
you always need my support with you
yeahh.. sometime im not that supportive
but when we really in serious talk
i do take everything seriously..
especially for your career
thats why i always keep myself silent
eventhough sometimes it really pissed me off!

whenever i am about to give up
i really wanted to say BRE*K!
but automatically my tears cant stop flowing down my cheek
SEE.. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU MA!
lin C dont go so far anymore eh..
i really need you here..
you promise to give me a great holiday
i only got one month
now almost go to january eh..
can you pls come back asap?
i still waiting for you..
really! still have like mountain kinabalu that high..



公, i really miss you!

hey..i cames finally
its been so so long im away from my beloved blog
its not that im lazy to share my stories
but there is nothing special..
i dont wanna share RUBBISH at here!

well, i dyed my hair again ;) taadaaa!
not a big changes because i dyed to light brown
same like my old hair colour, take a look!

zoom up to tiring face ;) haha

I Love You, Dad!

yesterday i went for a breakfast
with daddy mommy and my bro, Allan..
we came first because mom have some work
then we ordered simple food
while waiting my dad friends and mom
so dad was reading his newspaper
i dont know somewhere somehow i look at him
i watch every step & move he is doing..
he took out his spect and wore it
suddenly i was stuck
looking every part of my dad body
i look at his hair..
i noticed that there is tiny white hair
almost half of his head are them
and then i look at his skin..
so many wrinkle around his face
no more smooth & soft when he is younger
suddenly i feel sad, hurt..
my tears almost drop
but i hold myself tightly!
i scare dad noticed that i was looking at him..
i realized that too many changes at him
that i never seen before
even i was just growing up next to him
i never give 100% attention to dad before this
and now suddenly i feel regrets..i was too busy on my life
until i forget about my family
dont even realize the changes on them
especially dad, he's getting older..
and seriously yesterday was my first time having breakfast with him ;(
all i know was asking for money from him
never ever ask about his life condition
i feel sorry for daddy
because i should ask for his health & talk with him
but all i know was dating with my boyfriend
i should have more time for him
as i was the eldest and only daughter!
dad never complain us
never lost his attention towards us
but whenever he started to mad
we said he is annoying!
haissss.. now i blame myself because i ever said it too
my dad is a tough guy
but he also getting weak
plus that he is getting older now..
care & attention.. he need this now
and i promise
im going to give him this
learning to care
is my new target now!
i have to change the way i care them..
and i wish i will..

time past very fast..
all the people are getting older
included me..
went to my grandma house
i saw my granpa pic and i realize that
he already past away for almost 3years!
when i saw my little cousin
all of them are getting taller and bigger
changes occur everyday
but hard to see..
i need to be ready
and i have to go on without daydreaming!
time is life.. to my dad

I'M SORRY DADDY!