I Blame Myself =(

Hello bloggy, I'm here again..

as usual I have alot things to share and I know you are the one I can talk to
no one judge me at here, so I'll be free to say anythings =)
first of all, same stories, I'm alone again..
but it doesn't mean I'm giving up or get bored with this
sometimes I'm just tired and think negative
I don't know why I still care for the past
I've been trying everyday, not to think too much
but everytime he's far from me, all the bad memories came again.
and I started to blame everythings on him!
seriously, he treat me very nice.. more than girlfriend or even wifey
he gives me everything, never less. and it comes sincerely from his heart.
like he always said, he gives me everythings to make me happy
while for him, my simple smile can make him happy everydays.
what am I doing huh? I find thousand of ways to make him angry
and even trying to leave him. I do everythings in purpose..
just because I want to make him feel guilty, so that he will stay and have more times with me.
see.. I am a selfish girl. I hate my immature attitude.
honestly, many girls find these type of guys.
I didn't mean to say he is the perfect guy
but seriously there's alot of young man who are unemployed out there
he's doing the right things now, I need to open my EYES.
its time to wake up Alice, can't you see? He do that for you.
I've been so lucky to have him but all this time i closed both of my eyes.
blame no ones but myself.
maybe this is the reason why I dont have alot of friends.
I only care myself, and forget about others.
I realized but still hard to change..
I wish I could be the perfect girl =( I do..
hopefully I'll be the new one, be open-minded, look forward for future..

 

I'm so so so sorry. I MISS YOU ='(
still waiting..

HongKong Trips Pictures =)

Thanks to the Lim's family, you guys brought so many wonderful memories to me.

really happy to have all the fun, joy & superb great time with all of you.

I'll never forget this. Love all of you. Mwaks!

wait.. more to comes =)

Unpredictable Moods!

Talking about moods -anger,sad,bored,tired
I have everythings, I'm very lonely
These few days, I just lock myself at room
I didn't go out and never talk to anybody
I feel bored but I have no one to reduce my boredness
I have alot things want to talk, but I don't know who to talk with
wish to go back to my home, but mom ask me to stay
all I want just to have someone with me
and definiately I miss him so much
He's the only person I need now
really hope to see him.. waiting for Friday =(
and hopefully I will be in right condition
sick with my Special Day =/
need to control my moods!

sorry I'm not in the mood for blogging.
Goodnight.. Xoxo

my super special gifts =)

1. Finally mom's decided to buy me a new laptop & it is on valentines day =) i'm really happy as soon i know about this. i've been using this for 3days & i really love this laptop. even it is not in pink colour but i still feel grateful and will appreciate it. thanks so much mom!

2. Yesterday mommy just bought me a new camera again =) i'm not really pro in using this stuff, so now i'm still learning. i still remember last month when i say i really love this kind of camera because of its function & produce good quality pictures. Never expect that mom will remember this very clear TT so touch lar. thanks again mommy for the gifts ya =)

3. This is my valentine's day roses =( I only cap one pic! he's find this so hard just to make me happy but at the end.... nevermind, hope will get the new one, bigger than this one =) hehehe love you baby!

4. Is it beautiful? i quite satisfied with the flowers lar, and i should add RED colour as one of my fav colour now! i really love red colour on my nails. it makes me feel pretty and have higer self-confident. hahaha

Happy Valentines Day!

First of all im going to say SORRY cause no pic on my valentines day
the day before valentines, i told my him to buy me a rose & a romantic dinner
& he replied "i dont know where to get flowes for u, kk ba nie"
i started badmood but still could hold myself & wish he's kidding
so the next day before i go to class i still cant stop to remind him
I MUST SAW MY FLOWER ON 4.30PM.
actually i get nervous when he comes to pick me
i scared he have no flower for me & yes!
the first word he told me just after i go in the car is "B, no flowers"
arrgghhh i did angry but i just show a smile, still not satisfied.
i look at the back, then there is a flower for me. temberang punya budak!!! haha
im really damn excited as he really get me the flowers
even it is not as big as last year but im happy too.
as soon as arrived home, my flowers gone =(
we had a little arguement and he accidentally throw my flower away.
xin tong larr, but i cant save my flower anymore, its everywhere!
then no more romantic dinner for me. Just a buffet at K-box.
i go there with a sad & angry mood but i have to act happy since everyone's there
it is not good to show bulldog's face infront of his relatives.
the time i really feel down....
suddenly he pick a song and sing to me!
i feel better, he's romantic though.. and like that i had closed my angry heart
and we celebrated it with a funny & happy nights =)
but i totally forget to snap our happy moment lar. haha sorry!
no matter how, im still happy and i wish i have more valentines with him.
for the flower, small matter la, i still have my last year roses.
hopefully he will replace it with the new one =)

happy valentines everybody!

ME =) My Life

* Song, Alice Theodora
* Song Ai Lee is my Chinese name
* 19 years old (2011)
* Female
* 10 December 1992
* Saggitarius
* I'm always listening to RnB, Pop & Rock =)
* Extremely Inlove with Branded
* My Favourite should be Gucci!
* I have 2 Beloved Puppies, Gucci & Chanel
* Fashion is my PASSION
* and Make-Up always complete ME!
* I'm Materialistic
* I love MONEY but it can't buy my love =I
* I have a lot branded stuff
* I'm a Sensitive Lady -loved to Cry-
* Very Obessed with Black & White colours
* Say 'NO' to Fakers, Hackers!
* I'm a Haters, so don't mess with me :X
* I'm not BAD but MEAN
* I'm not 100% Alcoholic
* I'm Slow-Motion
* LAZY!!!
* I talk Rojak (knows Malay, Chinese, English)
* perhaps Hakka, Hokkien & Dusun too
* I'm Mix Blood (Dad=Chinese/Mom=Dusun)
* I lived at Kampong but Im not Outdated!
* I can drive & most of it is BIG car
* I'm just 150cm Tall
* so, I have a bunch of High Heels collection =)
* I don't work cause now I'm Studying
* I'm NOT a GENIUS/NERD
* I don't have alot of friends =(
* I'm not Special, I'm just a Human Being
* I collect Fashion Magazine!
* I love to go Travel
* I have siblings, 2 Lil Bro
* but I'm the ONLY DAUGHTER
* I love my Babe's -Chi,Anne,Tian,San-
* I'm TAKEN ;D
* I have Big Bro, Mr. Robin Chong!
* My Best Cuzie -Eka,Yoe,John,Ping,Mel-
* I have best companion & listener -My Mr.Lim-
* I have a superb FUN family =)
* My HUBBY is my SOULMATE
* Short-Pants & Jeans is my best outfits
* I'm a Facebookers
* I'm not Crazy, I'm just acting
* Respect Me, I'll respect You
* Papa & Mama is my V.I.P
* I love Babies, the cute one.. Hahaha
* I watched any type of Movies
* I prefer Sweet & Sour for Food
* I drink Coca-Cola but now no more =(
* My Body >> 32,24,34 FAT!
* Always love Music & Singing
* Im Soft-Hearted & Loving Person
* My Beloved should be Chester Lim Kian Hung
* I can't go out without my HandPhone
* I never have enough Cash in my Wallet
* No Talking to Strangers!
* Smile doesnt mean I agreed with you
* I N S O M N I A if I have to sleep alone
* I only play Mini Games