❤ I Want This @.@

I was addicted to this three handphone, urrgghh ! I ask for suggestion at Facebook,this is the top 3 choices ~ First, i was thinking to get an I-PHONE, love the function of it but i seems like love BlACKBERRY more than I-Phone ~ Then comes the suggestion from my friends, they mention about SATIO ! Yer, don't know want buy which one.

But last few days, i already decide that i want to get SATIO ~ but since the price are too expensive, I need to pujuk MY MAMA ~ Told baby about it ~ But he also say too expensive, he say he can buy it for me but he say i must study at here ~ and stop chatting with other boys or BLA BLA BLA........

Since both of them too KU HAN(Greedy), i think i need to ask my dad to buy it for me ~ Hope he will gve me money to buy it ! Huhuhu :(

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I REALLY WANT SATIO !

Im SS-ing from early in the morning until evening :) All my natural face ~ non of make up and im kinda look weird ~ but i still like it ! haha :D some of it, i just wake up and some of it i took ondaway to work, also at my aunt house. Today wearing siglet. Then change to T-Shirt cause need to go work ! Wearing the T-Shirt that bought by BABY :) Love it ~

Sorry for the light or angle ~ Just randomly took :)

❤ 我需要他！

我不明白为什么我不能把以前的事情忘掉！今天突然想了很多让我难过的事情~ 我真得不能把以前发生过的事情当作不知道~ 我真得无法忘掉那些不开心的回忆。 很想把所有在我心里的话讲出来，不过我自己也不知道要找谁来陪我一起分担这个问题！

其实我已有了最适合的人可以和我一起分享，不过当我需要他的时候，他就偏偏不在这里== 但我也不能怪他，因为他也不是故意想让我一个人在这里的，他是逼不得以才这样做的，至少每个星期能见一两次。现在我很想睡在他的肩旁，讲我的心事给他听，让他安慰我。很想抱着他睡觉~ 我真得很想念他 :( 可是我必须等到星期五才能见到他。

虽然我已经习惯了这个安排，不过有时我还是不能控自自己的心，难道我真的没有了他就不行吗？答案是“不行”早就知道了，所以我是不可能会让他离开我~ 我做什么事都要他帮忙，要他鼓励， 真得不能失去他。关于读书，我也还在想到底要不要去，我不忍心要让他一个人在这里过生活。他一定会很孤单！

最后想说的也是一样，我们根本就不能失去对方~ 我需要他，他也需要我！不知该这么办。希望时间会过得很快，现在只想要见到他！



*抱歉！我的华文很乱，很久没写华语字了，希望大家别笑我。哈哈！

❤ Cleaning

I was cleaning up my room just now :) Before this my room was so messy ~ I don't even dare to sleep at my room cause its really dirty. But now, it looks better. Love my room so much ~~ feel so tired now ! Wait for saturday ~ I want to show my room to baby ^^ He must be happy to saw it !

SS-ing with my babe just now :) At ahloh house toilet ! Kaka :D Ignored my eyes ~ I know it look so tired ! and also my hair, look oilly ~ GROSS ==

❤ Miss Him :(

Last night i was talking about break up with my baby. I take my words back ~ I still can't let him go. I know i seems stupid suddenly decide to break but suddenly take it back again. Somemore, maybe this look so CHILDISH but i think NO ~ I just confuse with my condition ~ Im too stress :(

Some of them keep pushing me to continue my education ~ I know its good for me but the fact is IM NOT READY YET ~ I can't leave my baby alone at here. I decide to start my school session after i back from travelling with my baby & his family ~

Baby started to live at my house every saturday ~ Im so glad that he can have more time to company me & no need keep count on SMS through phone :) I really excited that he had promise he will come back to my house and sleep at there every saturday ~ Thanks baby ^^

Also want to thanks to SAMMY YAP SHI YEE :) Giving me advise last night. I know he do love me more than i love him ^^ and i hoped u oso can be more matured and forget about the past k ! Cheer up gurl :) you must show to your besties and also us that u are more matured now. JIA YOU ~

Waiting for the next saturday ~ Baby coming back !

❤ Stress !

I don't know what is going on with me :( I feel so dizzy, so stress ! i hate myself and all the people around me. All of them make me so stress ! I don't understand why ? It just happen suddenly :(

On saturday, i was hiding at baby room and crying at there alone ! I don't know why im suddenly crying :( When i crying, i felt that nobody understand me, even my mom, family, friends and him. I know im abit complicated, hard to be understand. Nobody can comfort me if im start bad mood.

I decide to stop my relationship now. I can't stand over this heavy loads anymore. I really sick and tired !! I want to let go all the things that make me stress. I started boring with baby edy. Maybe i really need to let him go. Sorry dear :( Hoped you happy without me, and i hoped you can get a better gurl than me. Cause you are so damn useless for me !

❤ Inlove with my blog :)

Well, its kinda weird post two blogs in a day. Today i didn't go to work, so i find something to do to fill up my free time :) I was updating my blog. Im totally inlove with my new blog now, its much better than the old one :)

I was alone at home today, all of my family members go out edy :( left me alone at home. If baby at here, i won't be alone and boring == Erm, everytime i go out,all of them keep asking & finding me :( but they go out, i never ask !! urrgh ~

SORRY, guess im too EMO now :(

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Just take some pic today :) I try to get a new make up way but i think this is not suit for me. I need to try another way of make up ! Enjoy these pic :)

❤ Applying ==

Sorry this few days didn't update my blog :( Erm, im kinda busy this few days. I find some research about school in our country, trying to apply all of the college or univercity, also waiting the answer from Matrix Labuan. Haiss, feel so stress about this school things ! I know i want go for futhur study but i don't know if im ready yet :( Its kinda bother me sometimes. I don't know how to stress out all of this heavy load !

Before this i was waiting for my graduation ~ after that i was waiting for my SPM results, I thought its over edy but now i still need to wait the calling from the schools that i had apply. It make me so nervous and stress, urrgghh !! I scare i will make my family disappointed with me :( Everydays they are talking about me, especially about their hopes to me ~ I can't afford what they want but im trying my best to make them satisfied. Its like all the family members count on me !

As the oldest sis n also only daugther, force me to show my parents & bro's about my ability ! At home, i was the most lazy and useless. But in studies, im the most excellent among my siblings :) Im proud but i don't want to be an example for my bro's & cousins ! Thats too much for me >< Im just being myself and i had no point to be others good example. Im just a simple gurl too !

Gosh, i hope they understand me more, i really can't show anythings to them. I just trying my best to let all of my family satisfied ~

❤ Picnic's

Last FRIDAY & SATURDAY, i joined the picnic organised by my family's. We had so much fun on that day :), and somemore, i play basketball !! Finally, i do something boyish ! Haha XD, enjoy the snapshot ! Don't be jealous =)

There are alot pic we took that day, but so sorry cause i lazy want to upload ==

❤ Being Proud, But ...

Today i was so nervous ! Firstly, i was waiting the news from my baby's family. But maybe i was unlucky cause he still need to stay at there for a days. Maybe he will be back on tommorrow ! I really hope i can meet him tommorrow. I JUST MISS HIM SO MUCH :( Secondly, I was worried about my SPM's result. I don't even dare to think about it ~ Im so scared the result will make me fainted after i saw it, but the god help me. Hehe :) eventhough my result are not excellent, atleast it can be prefer as GOOD ! Actually i failed two subjects. Of course and only ( ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS & CHEMISTRY ) I admit that im very weak in these two subjects ! But i dare to tell that i already TRY MY BEST !!

After taking the result, my friends text me and asking me to join their last party ! Most of my friends gonna leave this town soon for furthur study, same as me ! But i really can't join them. It was just like i have lost the chance for " Prom Night " but its okay cause i also don't have the mood to celebrate it ! I just need my baby, I hoped he can celebrate it with me :)

Im so happy that my family's was proud with me, I guess i didn't make them disappointed ! But i still not satisfied cause i have failed two subects ! Its really SUCKS ! Its fine, after this i really need to hardworking ! I must show them I CAN DO IT ! So, wish me luck guys.

❤ Unexpected, He was Innocent :(

Today something UNEXPECTED happen to me and baby. I was really shocked, anythings can be happen. Actually, i was just settle up our problem. We getting better,start to talk and joking with each other again. He was just asking me after finished yamcha, he wanna go get a hair cut at barber shop.

So, we just heading to the car park, going to the next destination. He walk faster than me, i just followed him at the back. Suddenly got two unknown guys went near to our car and start asking him question. Both of us was confused and worries. Watching my most beloved being caught. I almost felt down on the road. I can't stand well but i try to cover myself.

Although i was scared, but i try to convience myself to ask them. Unfortunately they just bring him go and left me with my friends. I can't describe even a word. I don't know what was im thinking. I don't even know what was i feel. What was really stick on my mind is, i hoped i can save him and bring him go away from them. Watching him inside the car, i can feel that HE WAS INNOCENT AND I SAW HE ALMOST CRIED ! So do i :(

Baby i trust you so much. I know you are innocent ! I will wait for you. I hoped i can meet you soon :( I cant even close my eyes now, i just waiting the time and waiting for you come back to my side !

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I AM DOWN :(

❤ My Fault For ASKING ?!

I was just finish having my BIG ARGUEMENT with baby again. Haiss, is it wrong for asking a quetion as his so called " GIRLFRIEND ". Yes, its my fault for asking too much but its fine for me to know more details, right ?? I really don't understand why he need to angry ! But its over now, i lazy want to write too long about me & baby. I know it will looks boring for my visitors, and of course for myself too !

Well, lastnight was more fun for me, having a conversation with unknown people at MSN. Haha XD we randomly invite people to our room and keep bully them. make them so confuse and some of them leaving the room before start having conversation. LOL

Tonight i plan to play again, but now seems like less people online. Just facebook-ing. Really lame laa == ! What else can i do, huh ? Get away from here ? I don't even dare to think about it. Cause im totally been spoiled by my parents since i was a baby. Leave town and take care of myself like adult ? I don't think sooo ~~

My point is IM STILL MY PARENTS BABYGURL ! LOL =)

❤ Bro's Alric Birthday

Today was my bro, Alric birthday. We didn't plan to celebrate his birthday since my mom are not around yet. She goes to Beaufort for a couple days and today she will return home. But we didn't know what time she will arrive. My bro tried to call her but when he was asking her, where is her now ? My mom told him that she almost arrive home.

I can see that my bro was unhappy. But he tried to cover it. Haha XD, so baby suddenly plan something for him. After we take our dinner, baby brought us go tapau KFC and bought a small cake for him. We arrive home almost 8.30p.m, then we called my bro to return home. He was happy when he saw the Kentucky chicken and a Cake but he still act cool. LOL

Oppss, sorry that we didn't tae pic for his simple birthday party. Huhu :( Altough its a small party but we still enjoyed the fun we had together.

Nothings special this few days, but i feel so happy cause this few days baby sleepover at my house. Hehe :) after that we go picnic with my family. Almost everyday ! Haha XD, actually my house near to a river so we can go there everyday.
Most importanat for me, my besties had find me today ! But my phone is run out of creadits so i cant reply her ! huhu, sorry babe :(

Thats all for this coupled days !

❤ Forget the Past !

Today when i was awake, i still unhappy. I try my best to forget and ignored him, so i didn't contact him. Around 10a.m my phone rang, i know its him, i try to ignored. I didn't answer my phone at first but after he called me for the 2nd time, i pick it up.

When we are talking, i keep try to force myself to mad at him. I really want to a have a big arguement with him so that i can say the " BRE*K " word again. But finally i didn't did it. ==

I know i still lose to my heart. Love him so much :) But i really want give a BIG THANKS for my babe anne. She was the one who keep support me and giving me so many advise. She know that i really inlove with him.

Actually, i do love him even he have many weakness, i admit that i only have my happiness when i was be with him. Maybe this teach me to learn about forget the past. I know if i still want to save this relationship, i need to give him a second chance. I cant always blame on him for his past. Its over !! I really need to put this down :) I must stop tinking of this.



I KNOW I CAN DO IT :)

❤ Hurt again :(

Today He was come back ! Unfortunately, im not that happy. Maybe because he promised to back on wednesday but at last he didn't show up. It was not a big suprise for me because he always do that. Then we hang out a while :)

We having our conversation just now at MSN. Lazy want to send a msg through phone. Msn is faster than SMS ! Then, we started our conversation. Firstly we were so happy but i think maybe im too SEN KA LIN, so i ask him one question. The answer make me so HURT but im happy to know about it, i hope he was telling me the truth ! I didn't regret that i ask that question cause i don't want i keep asking myself of that question and keep wondering unknown answer from him !

Seriously, HE HURT ME TOO MUCH & ITS REALLY OVER FOR ME ! Better i just described that IM LOST OF MY WAY :( I cant even write it too details at here. I wish i could share with anyone of you but its better for me to keep it as my secret. I don't want to make him embarass. So, i decide that i wont wrote it here. Just keep it deep in my heart ~

I don't understand why i still love him. He was not a perfect guy for any girls. He didn't have good education, He was a no manners person, He love to showing off his power and wealthy. Like to speak louder than anyone else. Gosh ! Why i meet him ?
Its unfair ! I am a GOOD GIRL, which i thought so. The difference between us is ( ALICE = ANGEL , HIM = DEVIL ) i hope now all of you understand what i mean now.

I dont think that we are a perfect match coupled. But everyone around me keep told me that we are the sweetest ever. LOL, really out of my mind ==

I just want him to care about my feelings more, understand me more, never cheating on me again, Stop clubbing, Stop talking nonsence, Stop smoking, Stop showing off, Stop making friends with BITCHES & LOSERS ( I dare to tell that most of his friends is in this categories ) Stop hurting me, Stop ignored me, Stop control my life, Stop advising me, Stop bossing me !

I don't want you stay love me because you promise to loved me, but love me as your heart do ! Im sure that i was never stop loving you :)
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This page is just for you MR. CHESTER LIM KIAN HUNG. If you can spend abit time to read this, i hoped so ! Sweet dreams ^^

❤ My Feelings

Today, one of my babe had find me at MSN. Everytime thinking of her, i felt pity on her. She having a relationship problem now. Her BF suddenly changed his relation status to single. I don't understand what is his point, but if u really want to break up with her, please explain to her. Don't make your own decision before discussing with her.

Advise for BOYS : Do not leave her alone without any reason or explaination. Must having a discussion between both of you before decide to break up !

I do tried it once. It was really hurt for me. I know that feelings :( I hate somebody do like that, but im can't judge or mad at YOU because i don't know who are YOU, and i choose not to be a BUSYBODY !

So happy to know that my babe anne & babe chi become friends again. I know they always love each other. Anne told me that lastnite she was talking phone with chi2. Finally they talking to each other again.

For my beloved babe, i don't know what is the latest news about her. She never contact me again, even in FB also less. Huhuhu :( I don't know if im still her besties !

Lastly, IM WAITING A PHONE CALL FROM BABY ! But i guess maybe he was too busy at there. He promise me that he will come back today, but at last he didn't show up. He always do that, I know :(

Opps ! Almost forget, yesterday i visited chi2 blogs. Guess what, there come a women that calling herself as Mrs.chen, acting like a pro, advising chi2 ! She talking about nonsence and keep blaming chi2 for everythings. Just one word from me, stop blaming her, She didn't hate your bestfriend ! She was tring to help your bestfriend to get a better life. So, dont come to her blog and try to ruin her life. You don't even know who is her. So, dont act like u understand her ! Somemore, please open your dictionary & learn more english word so that you won't misunderstand what is people trying to say. LOL

Finished for today :)

❤ Last chance

Today is 2nd of march. Time doesn't wait for us. All of us grown up. Now im counting the day, 15more days left for us. After this i don't know where are we ggoing and who are we gonna make friends ? What kind of people we gonna meet ? I just know that i miss my friends so much, especially my besties :(

I ever think that do they miss me too ? Or they already forget about me ? NO, i don't want ! I cant lost my friendships ! Hope that they will know my feelings now. If anyone of them visit to my blog, i hope they will understand what ifelt now.

Having a plan for our reunion but i haven tell anyone of them yet. I just discuss it with bryan & babe anne. I didn't discuss with baby yet. I hope he will give me green light for it ! Its my last chance to meet all of them.

But i had promise baby that i wont take alcohol anymore. How ?? Can i keep on the plan ?? But i dont even dare to tell or ask him. I scare he will disappointed with me :( I will think about it properly !
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Nothing special ! Lame. Bye :(

❤ UNLUCKY :(

I was UNLUCKY recently. Why im saying this ? Guess what, im going to re-sit my examination for driving lisence again. Tomorrow was my big day. I edy take for 2 times but i still cant pass. Haizz :(

Another one is my eyes ! I hate the weather. Why must summer ? I hate summer, Need to drink alot of mineral water. can't go out because scare of sunburn, I just feel want to go inside the water for whole day. ITS TOO HOT !

Last one is my laptop. I dn't know what the hell my bro doing to my laptop until all my pic and song oso cant play or see. Now need to bring to shop for reformat. Haizzz !

WHAT A UNLUCKY DAY FOR ME ! HATE IT SO MUCH !