wake up in the early morning

ahhhhh.. long time im away from my blog
many things happen for this week
but how to write ya?
ok.. lets start with monday ;)

MONDAY : went back to kk ;( sit almost 2hours and half..alone at the bus..haisss! so scary and dizzy :( arrive there at 6.30pm, of course friends are waiting for me at there >>>> headed to K-box cause TienTien feel like wanna SCREAM SHOUT! haha

TUESDAY : a special day for me ;P went out with my besties (chi,anne,tien) errmm, should be added this one guy..better just call him lin pi laa.. Yeah!that is his name given by US ;) ngek ngek! alot fun,alot song,alot dance,alot 3838383838 ;) when we send anne2 back to her house, this "JINGLE" bark-ing nonstop! kalah bha engine sound!

WEDNESDAY : hoooray!finally we move to the new building ;) WELCOME new unitar, BYEBYE my taman dixon ;( moving to beverly this friday! arrgghh im going to miss my uncle dish..

THURSDAY : went to class like usual >< taking quiz just now, quite easy but hope will get a high mark too cause im careless thou!arrrgghh forget to do my timetable, im going to have my mid-term two weeks later =X stressful

FRIDAY : errrrr, sleep early then woke up early in the morning, open my laptop and blogging now!FUHhh..tik tak tik tak, waiting for my darling ;) yess!

so how about the short story? isit hard to get my point?
nvm laa, as long i understand my language..
oppss.. btw can't wait to meet my new born baby!
here i come 3.0VIGO
my reddish baby had been replace now
but mumy still miss u k!
for the new owner of 8278.. take care of HIM

-end of story-

♥ Drink Drank Drunk

my saturday and sunday night just Drunk Drunk Drunk,lazy want to wrote much!so just look at the pic ;) ignored the half naked and our stupid face!

still steady tiz

the hubby ;)

the cousin ;)

ignored the face

lastnight getting drunk

im not alcoholic, just having fun at weekend ;) now still feel dizzy dizzy but someone worst than me ;D haha belajar tapai laa darling, tiz just enough kick!

♥ help them and you'll be blessed

okay today im done with the bf thingy..
its quite lame to write the same topic everydays
so here it comes....
i think i am going to write about the global
actually i am just finished watching The Oprah Winfrey Show
then i realized that i started to like the show
this show leading us and teaching us about life
to shows us how somebody from low level life
jump up to be a billionaire...
some of them may have lived in a dirty and disgusting place
or some of them might have been imprisoned for serious offenses
but it doesnt matter because
they managed to change their lives to become a better person
errrr, lets just start about the real topic
actually im going to express my opinion about the famous issue
its about Child and Drug Abuse
based on a series of television programs that i have seen just now
i really feel sympathy for the situation they faced
almost all of this story happened while they were still as a young child
it includes her own show host, Oprah Winfrey
so the victim was Todd Bridges
the former child actor in the famous series, Diff'rent Strokes
even he seem to have a perfect life
but the fact of his real life is not as perfect as we saw
in the television screen......

the case began when he violated the honor by a man
who was living together in his house while he was still a child
after it was found by her mother
he tried to complain to his father
but his father did not believe the incident and stressed that he lied
so, he began to feel angry and revenge against his father
because his father did not trust the fact that it was real
Thus he became involved with drugs
condition worsened after he ran away from home
and started selling drugs...
he also has become the most powerful
drug dealers and prostitution supplies in one neighborhood
he said he was awake for 14 days when he was with the drug fantasy
at the same time he behaved like a mad man
he said when he was arrested by the police
they were again sent him to the rehabilitation centers
he told that all this is pointless for him
because he had been there several times
and still repeating his actions
but this time was different........
4points that he was bound by both hand and foot
and dressed in diapers
he also had to urinate in the diapers
because he is not allowed to go to the toilet
through that experience he decided to change
he finally managed to leave the drug for 17years
and proved he was clean until today
he also married and had children of their own
although he has changed but people still bring up about his past
so he wrote a book entitled "The Killing Willis"
in the book is a journey
throughout his life involved with drugs and after leaving drugs
he also talked about ways to be a good father to his children
because he did not want his children to feel
the lack of love
and affection of a father as he went through when he was young...
finally he thanked his mother
who always persevere and never stopped supporting
him to change his life and managed to become a better person

i would like to express my perceptions about this issue
because i feel annoyed with irresponsibility as a father
who failed to pay attention to their child
who ultimately forcing them
to be involved with drugs to get rid of frustration...
i feel i got obsessed with this issues
because i also want to help children who deal with problems like this
not only in financial terms
but also in terms of volunteer helps...
i think i have no heart to continue
to allow these children to suffer like this
because they have plenty of opportunities
to become better human beings
when they grow up in groups of healthy
and supplied with a high standard of education
i hope that the public concern about these problems
and willing to help these children...

anyone who read this article
think well and try to jointly solve the problem
especially to parents, give all of your love and trust to your children
so they do not fall in social activities that are not healthy...

p/s : i am grateful to have parents who love and understand my situation when i was going through hormonal changes, and i will find and buy the book to find out the real story of the victim.

♥ Heartache!

ONE WEEK
finally its been a week, you did well
just like what i wish for, you really did great
you do everythings good
no message no call not even meet me
why do you care? cant you ignored my stupid shitty words?
why you followed everythings i demand to you?
can you be a man? pls dont always let me win
pls dont always listen to my words
dont you know that mentioning separation only when i am angry?
dont you know me well?
this is not what i want...
today i called both of your manager
just hope they will help me send a regard to you at there
i do miss you, very much!
i really want to meet you, even just for a second!
calm down pls ;( forget the fucking hell stupid agreement
i dont want it anymore
i just want you come back, let me hear your voice
let me hold your hand again
let me hug you again
let me sleep on your shoulder again
just a day also enough for me, i didnt ask more!
darling pls, i take back all my words
pls dont stay too long at there
i am heartache right now.. totally speechless
even the funniest movie we had ever watched together also cant make me smile right now.. i lost my happiness
baby do you hear all of this?
you always told me when you alone at there
you will hear and know what is in my heart
so do you know what im thinking right now?
do receive my message to your heart?
dont you miss me?
dont you want to see my face?
i remember you always said you cant stop from seeing my "meaty cute face"
*but i dont think so, im not cute as you said
i wonder how if you really can hold yourself from coming back
means i really need to wait till 25november?
i hope you wont do that...
dont be stupid, i know you wont treat me so bad
is it i am persuade-ing myself?
so ridiculous, i look like an idiot now
anne's right, she called me just now
she said maybe you just busy or do something
or maybe you want raise money to buy me something
or maybe you have an suprises for me(since you always failed to give cause of my sampat mouth) haha
i think so.... persuade-ing again @@
uurrggghhhh hope this week past quickly
i really cant wait for another week
just wish to see you ASAP

DEAR GOD : pls make my wish come true, only a small matter, hope can get a call from him tmr ;( i really do hope this will happen, give me miracle pls! i promise im going to changed my bad behaviour, no more this! pls pls pls ;( i'll do anything to make him come back again. Thanks GOD, amen!

♥ YOU

Sayang......
today when i wake up, i look at the time
its early in the 7morning
i need to wake up early cause tientien's friend (ewan) going to pick us for breakfast
long time didn't go MCD, so i choose MCD for our breakfast
pls dont mad at me because i go out with them k
after breakfast actually i want to go to print my assignment
but since too many people at the shop
we decide to print it another day
Then went to UITM find Anneanne, but she didnt answer my call
so we just go to another place
finally i know where is the Crocodile Park
last time you told me you looking for that place
now, i know how to go there edy
plan to bring you go there so i keep wait for you
suddenly my phone rang!
i look at the screen, "ANNE"
quite dissapointed because i waiting for your call
but still i answer and feel happy when i heard her voice
so we turn back and went to UITM again
Yeah, i could see my babe's face and talk face to face with her
eventhough its just a while but i still happy for that conversation
she's invited me to her house tmr but i didnt promise that i can go
cause i still waiting for you to come here
then we can go together..........
wait and wait
it is almost 12.30pm
you still haven call me ;(
i know you not coming back already
i try to smile, talk louder to cover my sadness
unfortunately tientien still can see that im down
this time you suddenly take my words very serious
usually you will ignored it
but now you really show me that you are heartless than me
hmmmmm...........you so evil baby
you know i didnt mean it, i just say like that to make you scare
to make you find me more
but i guess i am wrong this time
you just leave me and went to camp without any sound
now you even stay there for a long period time
i dont even know when are you coming back again
i really hurt..
i miss your soften voice so much..
i miss you hug me tightly..
i miss your smelly body..
i miss your kiss..

*i miss you say "Goodnight laopo" before we close our eyes and in silent mode

*i miss you say "Baby, dont garugaru my paha leh" when i try to stop you get into your sweet dream

*i miss you say "im hungry oh,cook maggi for me eh laopo" after we eat and you still perut kosong

*i miss you say "can help me do some massage ma baby" when you just back from work

*i miss you say "come we go to take bath together" but you not dare cause mentua tidak bagi

*i miss you say "eat baobao ah,i want you become fuipo" eventhough i going to vomit edy

i miss everythings about you ;(
Baby, can you ignored my words again?
can you come back?
i want you T_T

i cant sleep without you

PLEASE

♥ my little life

Baobei
this is the third day of our "Love Quarantine"
i call like that because i really dont wanna mention about B-words
besides we still in our love relationships
i know this is my idea and i totally regrets for my stupid actions
but if im quit right now, im still the selfish girl
i just hope you will come down and accompany me if you are free
DONT WORRY BABY
i admit that life without you is completely going mess and lonely
but life must go on.....
sometimes when i suddenly think of you
like usual the tears going to be my partners again
i really cant stop thinking about you........

Today my cousin ask me if i wanna go clubbing with her
let me think?actually I DO, i really want to go
but i know if you know about this
you must be very angry with me so i just reject her invitation
of course, i know myself very well if im drunk
*i dont want to talk about it, if you know just shut your mouth!
so i was thinking....
can we go again just for a night?
look i dont mean to be ALCOHOLIC i just want to get some joy and fun
you see, i still care about you
im not going anywhere without your permission
which means i do anythings that i promised with you
(the night before i decide to go away)
so can you trust me now?
i hope after you back from camp
you will view my blog and check out what im doing for the whole week
ERM I KNOW YOU WILL because you know i'll write evrythings here ;)
suddenly im speechless
i dont know what to write, what to tell
just got you in my mind
i think im done...........
goodnight!

♥ i make a decision for us

we have spoke out everythings lastnight, i feel better now
finally i know that you still love me just like you always do
you told me that many things borther you this few months
i understand your condition
so i make a decision for both of us
i think this is the way that can make us relax our mind
i let you go...........
not break up okay, i let you go for work
do your own things until its complete
i dont want to disturb you for a while
i want to let you concentrate on your work
so that you wont keep thinking about managing your time for love and career
i know you always put me on the first place
but if because of me make you lost your concentration
i rather go away for a moment
its best for you and me.....
i'll support you honey, i will help you this time
1MONTH i wait you
i sure after 1month we will be together again
take care baby!

♥ its started to fades away

baby...........
theres alot i want to tell you
but we never have any chance to talk to each others
i dont know why
day by day the way you treat me really strange
maybe its me think too much
but why seems like you dont care me anymore
you know?
its really hard for me to let you go
but you know me, i hate myself if i cant give my love one a happiness
is it hard? i think its simple to do
all i want is give you a happiness but i cant even give it to you
i really dont know if i had give you any happiness this 3years
i admit i dont understand you, but you also same
you also never understand what i want
i had wait and wait and wait.........
for a long time, u become independent
but me? i am just a girl that too count everythings on you
small matters also need you to help me solve it
everything must be you to help me
i became spoiled.. spoiled by your love
why you give me alot? you give me everythings that i never wish for
i really thought that we will happy forever
but no, love wont easily make us have a happy ending
sorry for everythings..
im just not suit for you i think
this several weeks you really changed
i feel like im not important anymore
you know how sad i am
the fears coming back again
fears that scare will losing you again
i really cant!
it always make me awake on mid night
always had a bad dream about you
its really bother me
when i try to tell you, you at other side
how am i gonna tell you?
when you come back, you just treat me so cold
what i need to do?
this tears should stop now
but i really have no idea to make it stop! pls
just for this time
come to my side and show me your love once again
if not,i maybe would lost all of my trust that i put in this relationship
pls baby..........pls stop me from crying
i hope u read this!
really fallin love with you
i really cant stop it anymore
I LOVE YOU♥