❤ Applying ==

Sorry this few days didn't update my blog :( Erm, im kinda busy this few days. I find some research about school in our country, trying to apply all of the college or univercity, also waiting the answer from Matrix Labuan. Haiss, feel so stress about this school things ! I know i want go for futhur study but i don't know if im ready yet :( Its kinda bother me sometimes. I don't know how to stress out all of this heavy load !

Before this i was waiting for my graduation ~ after that i was waiting for my SPM results, I thought its over edy but now i still need to wait the calling from the schools that i had apply. It make me so nervous and stress, urrgghh !! I scare i will make my family disappointed with me :( Everydays they are talking about me, especially about their hopes to me ~ I can't afford what they want but im trying my best to make them satisfied. Its like all the family members count on me !

As the oldest sis n also only daugther, force me to show my parents & bro's about my ability ! At home, i was the most lazy and useless. But in studies, im the most excellent among my siblings :) Im proud but i don't want to be an example for my bro's & cousins ! Thats too much for me >< Im just being myself and i had no point to be others good example. Im just a simple gurl too !

Gosh, i hope they understand me more, i really can't show anythings to them. I just trying my best to let all of my family satisfied ~