❤ 悲伤

人 长大后自然会有很多烦恼 我不懂！
思想非常复扎 不能把事情想的简简单单
单纯 只会被人利用 被人陷害
难道世界真的已经失去了“人性”这两个字吗 ？
想了很久 但我还是不了解


或者我自己也把这些想得太复扎了
可是 有人能否认吗 ？
其实自己也累了 本人也太多烦恼了
也许 宝贝说得对 是想太多


不过我确定 某一些事情真的没那么简单
虽然已经过了很久 但心里且还瞒着很多的疑问
且还藏许多害怕的感觉 我不想！
我真的已经尽力　现在我发现我还是个失败者


IM BACK ! I just wrote two journal for april~Today im gonna add it with new stories new feelings :) All just about my daily life ! Some going good but some going bad. My life is upside down~I don't even know what to write and what to share~My brain is full with the problem~I've tried my best~and i've promised to baby im gonna forget but it just following me around~It will show up everytime i reached the maximum of my happiness~It will always come back for me when im alone~I really need my love beside me to help me forget all fo this~

脸　看起来开心　其实都是假　而伤口　只能藏在心里　悲伤　只能自己疗治

Baby~there's alot things i hide inside my heart~you just don't see it through your eyes~i ever want to share it with you~but i don't have the braveness to tell you~i don't have idea how to start it infront of you~Im so suffer :(

生活突然变得很寂寞　身边的朋友越来越少了　快乐的环境也很难拥有了　没有灿烂的笑容了

Life changed~everythings changed, all turn dark. No more happiness, no more fun~Its hard to see a smile everydays~Friends ? Just a word~I can't even recognize did i have a true friends im my daily~Its make me so stress !

最后　宝贝我真的已经尽量　我已经很努力　我和你的感情是太完美了
我没办法要忘记你　我也不能失去你　我只想让你开心　
我试了　但也使我累了　现在我只想你留在我身边　好好的爱着我

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Last week i spend my whole time with baby :) I've learnt alot about real life this few weeks~I still didn't talk to my mom since the arguement until now, I know it seems like im rebelious but honestly im the innocent one ! I just hate people blame me when i didn't do anythings. It hurts me alot when my mom ask me to move out and say alot bad word about me :(

I was staying at kk for 3days 2nights with baby~This was the first time i ran so far from my family, its hard to live alone out there without family support. Im having a simple life with my love and i tried to really feel that moment !

Well, i've learnt to saving~this is my first time i didn't use all of my money~can u imagine that the whole trip for 3days 2night just spend for rm500++ i was suprised that this time i didn't use alot~I mean for two people~its kinda really saving~Usually i can use more than rm600++ just for a day, somemore its for myself~alot of money ^^

Not going many places for the so called "KK LIFE" just going to some shopping mall and cyber cafe~Guess what, i learn to play new game ! Its LEFT 4 DEAD, im kinda good ! haha~just described in one word~ I REALLY ENJOYED THE MOMENT WITH HIM ! THANKS ALOT FOR MY LOVE CHESTER LIM KIAN HUNG :) I really appreciate the whole things you do for me since the begining of 2010~I know you've changed alot for me, yourself, your family and my family ! I appreciate it alot ! Im glad about it :)

Somemore, i know i seems so mean lately but i really don't have any idea how to tell you~I really can't described it for you~I swear i never cheating on you ! I was hiding something~But its not about having other guys ! Its just me ! I want to be perfect for you, I want to be the best for you ! Thats all.